Unemployment.

What am I doing with my life??
I've been home for three weeks now, and though my days seem busy and productive, I look back and feel like I've accomplished close to nothing.

A typical day

• I do a few chores. 
• I send out a few more resumes.
• Watch an episode or two of Modern Family/Community/The Office.
• Talk to some Conversation-Exchange friends (para mejorar mi español).
• Read some blogs.
• I hand out a few more resumes. 
• Clean another footxfoot disaster of my room. 
• I get to the gym (or complain about not going when my knee is making a fuss).
• Oscillate between refreshing my email inbox and staring at my cellphone in hopes of offers of employment
• I mope and watch whatever I missed the night before (à la: GossipGirl, Greys, Glee)
• Skype & Tumbl the night away

Yeah, I waste a lot of time. But I also try to get stuff done!
I think the main reason I'm struggling with this so much is because the longest I've ever gone without a job is 3 months, and that was while I was getting settled in France.
I feel so irrelevant without a job, I'm antisocial (relying on my overdraft every time I leave my house) and boring.
I keep thinking 'I could get a job abroad so easily!' and then start plotting out how to get my visas and I can feel a happy dance starting somewhere deep in my bones.
And then remember that they require bank statements proving that you can survive financially in a foreign country.
Or you know, pay for the flight.

Of course, that would be the main bullet point that I seem to have missed..
I think about traveling. And then laugh at myself because how can I dream about getting away if I haven't even started repaying my school bills, let alone paying for a trip?
I then read travel blogs and get either jealous or inspired.
Rinse & Repeat.


Video via La Fille Américaine that gets me grinning.